i don’t want to fall asleep.
i don’t like sleeping when i’m angry, or frustrated, it usually doesn’t resolve itself in the morning. i don’t like waking up angry or frustrated in the morning.
just had a bit of a fight with the boy. kinda. i know he was just trying to be helpful, but everything he said i feel like i’ve tried. i was feeling defensive and lost because the advice he was giving me worked for him, but it wasn’t necessarily working for me. i don’t get it. it’s frustrating.
making a film is frustrating. when i feel like it shouldn’t be. every time i think about this, the more i don’t want to make a film
mainly because it feels like i’m forcing it.
i don’t know how to relax.
for fuck’s sake.
i don’t even know what’s going on. all this emotional irrationality.
i’m also tired of trying to think things through, mainly because it’s frustrating feeling lost.
i don’t want to sleep.
but maybe i’ll just do it. >:|